;; i didnt want it to end this way

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears
"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

i dont feel so much anymore because ive sucessfully protected myself,defended myself from my feelings by being so hyper analytical, so cerebral in reference t my defenses.
but im breaking down, just today
SUCKS to this feeling
im at the peak of my depression
so many things on my mind
i just want smone t talk to
smone t laugh with
i want t be HAPPY like before!
): ): ): ): ): ): ):
i hope everyone else whos sad out there cheers up soon!

;; right from the beginning